I had to leave the office earlier than my usual lunch hour today to pick The Teenager and send her to college for her 1.00 pm class. You see, our apartment is quite far from the main road and this has rendered those who dont have transportation to go out inconvenienced, including my daughter.
It is really a catch 22. We have been planning to get her the driving licence so that she can drive the family car when “there is an emergency”. But the other idea is also for her to be independent to move around with her own transport, when she owns one.
The only problem is, if she gets her driving license, we need another car.
I find that in my experience as a single mom, there are so many challenges that sometimes I just feel like there is nowhere to turn to but to bulldoze, come what may the end result might look like.
One of my fears is to have a very sick teenager at home when I am travelling for work. The extended family is but a figment coming from the previous life. If they had never been playing a major role before, now would not really matter too. Ferrying The Teenager back and forth has never been a real issue except when I am away working at a different part of the city where I cannot leave as quickly as possible. Another fear is, what if one day I just got sick, collapse and die?
Playing multiple role and juggling the financial aspects which some came from the previous marriage baggages, household stuff, a teenager, and at the same time playing the competent employee can be quite a handful sometimes.
After more than 2 years being a single mom, I think there are aspects of this single-mommyhood that I have mastered but some, sadly, I am still grappling around trying to find the right fit on how to do them.
Yeap, it is still a pretty scary world out there.